Guess What.

You like me, You really Like me. Sometimes I find myself in crazy situations but I always knew I'd end up here. I'm At a stage in my life where its unpredicitable. I dont know what tommorow will bring but I know I will face it with the same stiotic attitude I face everthing. Just happy to be alive and feeling it. Happy to have lived through it I got a wierd message today an email from the post master and hes telling me there is a glitch in the system.

What the fuck Is up Gucci Mane the G.

That Shit gets me every time. I hate to get ignant but fuck bitches get money. Humans by design are not supposed to be by themselves so you have have to suffer the company of another (esp since sex with someone else is so much better.) but don't think them capable of nothing, put nothing beneath them. I hate to have no faith in the human race but everyone I have ever met in my entire life one way or another has fucked me, (some in a good way). I'd like to think im not innocent either I Have done my fair share of fucking too. People are attracted to me like a fly is too a light. they like to hover and I know I have a commanding presence Im a loud person I speak loud I think fast I talk hard. People think I don't but I reflect a lot. When reading (something I do a lot of) I often stop and just think about how I carried myself and might I be able to do it better.

On another note Im out to China-town catch me at 90 Bowery hanging with the asians only black kid in their circle Im like a chameleon I can fit In anywhere, from surfing and throwing Keggers with my white boy's in Florida to a rap battle in the hood with my triple O.G.'s to Karaoke in Chinatown with the asians singing Avril Lavigne drinking saki. Swagg surfing at an ATL mansion party. Intensely debating why Obama is the best hope we have in 2012 and the republicans don't have a viable candidate thats not 90 years old are an airhead on campus. Protesting the release of Lupe's Fiasco's album on october 15th In front of Atlantic Records. The thing is everyone wants me there I liven shit up. Trust me I'm not one to toot my own horn but I am the life of any party I attend. Like a faviorte line of mine I wanna Be forever young even with limited means no car, time restrictions due to having to go to school I like to think I own NYC and she loves me overall Like paint clothes.

One your like a Dream come true.

It's my birthday And I can Cry if I want to. Hello lady's and gentleman its that time of the year again that one day where you remember the day you where born, you get to be nostalgic and remeber all the other "birthday's you celebrated" what do I have to think about some good ones some bad ones. some fun ones some miserable ones. 22 I like this double age Im closer to 30 tho so I have 8 years to accomplish something. I don't pray and ask for personal things I just feel like god isnt interested in the small things I want but I will change that today maybe it being my birthday will be some sort of beacon so maybe my prayer will at least be heard.

What are my plans on this special day I will leave it to fate to decide I have a few things I want to do few things Im capable of doing and even fewer things that want to do me :).

Even if I just sat in my backyard and enjoyed the cool breeze on my face with a ice cold class of something and a interesting book this day will be a win. the simple things in life that we enjoy are taken for granted so to the flash and the cash I say all that glitter isn't gold and if the Alchemist has taught me anything is that we usually search for whats right in-front of us so Ive decided to not search and just look forward.

Vote for pedro.

I don't do drugs. Not because I don't want to or I think they are bad for you Im just scared. I know myself I know what I am capable of and I need to be constantly in control or else I might do something stupid. At the same time I'm my own worst enemy and hypocrite cause alcohol is a drug its mind altering and its dangerous but I dip in vast quantities of the barrels of moonshine.

but no marijuana and definitely not Cocaine I'm afraid I will like it to much indulge to much not to be able to control the habit and the habit will control me. Other people are stronger then me in that aspect I guess and other people are also weaker then me but I just remove the temptation or the hazard all together.

I finished the merchant of Venice was a wonderfully written piece with tons of helpful hints from the mystery reader that had the book before you in this serendipitous world that we live in I hope maybe one day you come across my blog and read my words as I have read yours. In NY the elections for the Incumbents was held today and I didn't vote shame on me I feel like its my civic duty to make my voice be heard. Yes its just one votes but if you think about the great lengths in which the people trying to get elected go to, to get your vote and the small minute portion of the population that actually show up to vote it doesn't seem fair. Im making it a small pledge to myself to get out and vote for the elections in november so my voice no matter how miniscule can be heard. Its not the same fashion but I would like to think I make my voice heard here on this site. special thanks to the person who made this all possible: ME

Where are all the cups.

Life is crazy end of story It's a random series of events and if your lucky shit goes your way but for now.

Party Party Party, Rockstar Lifestyle Might don't make it. "She A good Girl I got her Transforming, She Give me Hot head Call it global Warming".

The Merchant Of Queens.

This semester I have a few breaks. Today during one of these alloted useless time zones I found myself wandering the library at school. During my aimless wandering I came across a Shakespeare Classic, The Merchant of Venice. I continued to pick up the book and noticed its not just any Shakespearean masterpiece but thee Shakespearean masterpiece as if god himself wanted me to read this. The book in a very serendipitous manner has been written all over with clues and hints to the hidden meaning that William blessed us with. It has taken me a while to go through the book literally 30 minutes for like 10 pages I meticulously go through page, paragraph, line, word with care and using all my mental prowess to devour and comprehend, and I still fell short. William Shakespeare was a master writer his literary prowess is unmatched. I found myself just within the first 10 pages enticed amazed and enamored all at the same time. Not wanting to Remove my eyes from the parchment,but of course all's well that ends well, and time for class came up (of course I found the book during my second break and not first one when I would have had twice as long to enjoy.). English class none the less guess I was prepping my mind for the hoops my english professor made me jump. My school I.D. strip or code or something messed up so I couldn't rent the book I can only hope that tomorrow its still in the same hiding spot I left it. On a more negative note Im feeling melancholy, pensive I hate to say depressed because then I would convince myself to take a zoloft or perkaset. just a general aura of sadness about me and it seems to resonate with me I cant get rid of it no matter how I confuse myself to beliving something good is happening in my life. I needed that book with me on the train today. I just sat there for an hour each way could have been devoted to deciphering Shakespeare's mind or Sudoku.

missed opportunities

Hello my faithful followers, I decided to stop advertising about my blog. I like my writing I don't do it for anyone else, so I can care less if other people read it. Its like a hidden gem something one day when someone smart hopefully is surfing the web they come across and are like wow this made my day, Currently listening to Pandora Red Hot Chili Peppers Radio (it makes life easier). School is starting up for me and Im kind of somber about it I really want to do well and I know the only way thats gonna happen is if I apply myself 10000%, Im looking forward to the challenge. I've learned to live without you it wasn't easy but you removed the stimuli and Im still able to function even at somewhat of a high level you will be missed though nothing like our summer conversations (and if you are reading this your conditioning worked) . I have been "fronting" on friends recently not on purpose just laziness and bad timing decisions, and I missed a few epic events. to those who felt the absence of my presence you have my sincere apologies. As well as a promise that I will attempt to make better decisions.